"There is a certain part of all of us that lives outside of time. Perhaps we become aware of our age only at exceptional moments and most of the time we are ageless."-Milan Kundera, Immortality

"and then we can just relax and watch tv together while snuggling beneath a yellow blanket as true lovers always do."

on second thought...

"

This is the springtime of my loving - the second season I am to know.
You are the sunlight in my growing - so little warmth I've felt before.
It isn't hard to feel me glowing - I watched the fire that grew so low.

It is the summer of my smiles - flee from me Keepers of the Gloom.
Speak to me only with your eyes. It is to you I give this tune.
Ain't so hard to recognize - These things are clear to all from time to time.

Talk Talk - I've felt the coldness of my winter.
I never thought it would ever go. I cursed the gloom that set upon us...
But I know that I love you so.

These are the seasons of emotion and like the winds they rise and fall.
This is the wonder of devotion - I see the torch we all must hold.
This is the mystery of the quotient - Upon us all a little rain must fall."

-Led Zeppelin, "The Rain Song"

...you posted this on my wall in november. you told me you loved me yesterday. what do i do?

" People worth being in relationships with will want to make you happy because they like you. If you are expressing what you want and need from a partner–in a cool, rational way–and not getting it, it may be time to move on." via smart pretty and awkward.

this advice could not have come at a more perfect time. i'm moving on.

it's been so long since i haven't had clogged sinuses that i had forgotten how frequently i am haunted by familiar scents.

today i am miraculously healthy and literally everything i smell is attached to some sort of memory.

it's weird.

in other news, i'm feeling simultaneously sad and optimistic about my love life.

sad because i feel like something wonderful is ending, but optimistic because i've finally moved past the huge thing that was holding me back. i have so much hope and so much love in my heart.

"whatever the mess you are you're mine, okay?"

whatever the mess you are you're mine, okay?

this is how i feel about you right now.

then we could be dancing, no more missing you while i'm gone. there we could be dancing and you'd smile and say, "i like this song." and when our eyes will meet there we will recognize nothing's wrong, and i wouldn't feel so selfish, i won't be this way very long.